A week away from publishing the sequel to my first novel, I am filled with a massive mixture of emotions. I’m excited, sure, but also worried about the response (or even worse, the lack of response) to my new venture. The book is a sequel. A crime thriller. A doomed romance. It is so many things to me, but my biggest fear is that it will not be those things to others.
My first book was an experiment. Something I wrote to prove I could finish a story; take a plot through from start to finish; work out how to self publish it on Amazon. And, in my eyes at least, it was a success. It sold a fair few copies in its first six months. It garnered some positive reviews. It managed to get into the top 14,000 books on the Amazon store at one point. It made me realise that I could self publish: that it wasn’t an impossible dream.
But The Search is my second book. It’s longer. I have had more experience of writing, and more time to correct or address the criticisms which were, mostly justifiably, levelled at Escape, my first book. So although I have learned an awful lot about the writing process, and made sure that I edited this book far more than the last, took longer over putting it together, had some beta readers “test” the book before I publish it, I am still concerned about its future.
But I am determined to put it out there. If we writers don’t try, we ultimately fail because of our fear of what others think of us. Too often in my day job I hear 14 and 15 year olds complaining that they “can’t” do something because it is too difficult and because they are afraid of failure. Daily, I encourage them to “have a go”. Because if you never try, you never learn how to get better at something. And you never find out how good it feels to become really good at something. So I’m going to follow my own advice and try. I’m going to publish The Search and see what happens.
The Search: a new book written by British author C.H. Little.
Published Friday 20th March 2015.